Samantha's Blogspot

2012-01-26T13:29:00.000Z

Following on from my last post i thought i would recommend a few hair products.

These are 3 hair related things i have to put in my suitcase no matter where i travel.
Other stuff i can kinda live without but these 3 things are the best!

So after washing and semi-drying my hair i apply 4 squirts of L'Oreal Mythic Oil and rub it through my hair, Continue to dry it properly.

My stylist used it a few times and it makes my hair so tangle free and feels really smooth but without feeling greasy.

I also like L'Oreal's Sculpting Spritz, its loads better than hairspray, it doesn't make my hair feel like cardboard even when i use loads! Its great for getting volume and lasts all day and night.
The day after your hair won't feel bad either!

Finally, to add a nice shine (just like when you just visit the salon) i like Charles Worthington's Gloss Spray.
A couple of sprays of this fine mist over your hair makes it really shiny looking. Perfect for finishing a style off and getting rid of any frizz.

Follow the links below to Amazon if you want to check them out further.

Mythic Oil
Sculpting Spritz
Gloss Spray

Daytime Makeup 2012

2012-01-24T16:17:00.001Z

A few times a month i get asked about my preference for certain makeup products, This blogpost is going to be a lighthearted one, A 'break' from the usual whinging that i am aware my blogs can sometimes be.

Mac Select SPF15 Foundation

I shall start at the obvious point and talk Foundation.
I've gone through a few preferences over the years, at first i would spend my pocket money on cheap stuff, the cheaper the better but the quality wasn't really great.
When i used to have facial hair and had to shave a couple of times a day i used to buy 'Kryolan TV Paint stick' Its a Theatrical makeup and is really really heavy. It covered great though, i couldn't live without this product until i had laser hair removal and now i don't ever have to shave i only need a medium coverage.

I like to use Mac 'Select', My skin tone is quite tanned so i buy NW25 shade. Its a really light foundation and goes a loooong way! A tiny blob on each of my cheeks, a blob on my forehead and one on my chin will cover my face easily!

** Top tip if you buy a Mac foundation, Spend an extra £2.50 on a 'pump' so you can dispense small amounts easily.**

17 Powder

I'm not embarrassed to admit that i only spend £3.99 on a really light powder, i don't really need it to set my foundation as it doesn't really need 'setting' as its not greasy.
I just use a little powder to stop my face looking shiny in places.

I do have a more expensive Mac product called 'Blot Powder' and its a bit heavier than the '17' product. So i use it on nights out clubbing cos its much more effective at stopping any shine.

Eyes!!!

My goto daytime look is all down to this palette, Its by Urban Decay and its called 'Naked'. Its a great natural colour selection and it doesn't matter which colours i grab, they all work well together.

It comes with a mini bottle of eye primer which i only use for 'going out' looks. It just makes everything stand out. Not exactly ideal for a daytime look but for nights out it works great!

I use 2 types of eyeliner, For my upper lash line i use a gel liner which goes on with a tiny brush and is quite strong.
For my lower lash line i use a normal waterproof pencil cos its a little lighter and doesn't look too obvious.

Maybelline Gel Liner - Top Lashline

The good thing about the gel liner is that a little bit goes the entire width of my eyelid, This is a good thing cos you can do it in one go without dipping into the gel half way through.

The Rimmel pencil has a little 'smugger' sponge on the end and this makes softening everything up a breeze.

Also, the Rimmel is really soft so also goes on thick if you don't have a light hand.

Rimmel Liner - Bottom Lashline

I have a couple of options for mascara depending on what look i go for. Theres a basic daytime look when i want to get ready quickly, Its just a quick application of my Maybelline Colossal Express, i like this one as the wand it really short and the end is very small, so it is quite precise.

If i want to dress it up and make everything a bit 'bigger' i like to firstly apply some 'Studio Secrets Lash Fibres' and let them dry before i go and put my mascara on.

Lash Fibres are a bit like tiny white fibres covered in a weak glue that stick to your own lashes and make everything appear fuller. Just don't forget to go over them with black mascara or you might look odd!

Of course if you've seen me on a night out then you've probably seen me with my false lashes and want me to give a recommendation on what to get.
Lashes are a personal taste and I get through a LOT of them so i buy in bulk from ebay, They are cheap but good quality.

Always curl your lashes if you want them to be 'fuller' and i really recommend the Mac curlers, they are available in a full or half width. They are built really well and should last longer than the cheap alternatives.

If you look at the photo of my blusher it looks quite 'Pink', I was surprised when the girl on the Urban Decay counter suggested it cos i thought it might be a bit bold, But in actual fact it goes on quite lightly and really suits my skin tone.

I like to use my special 'recycled' brush from UrbanDecay, its made from old coke cans and carrier bags apparently and is very ethical!

FYI this blusher is called an 'Afterglow' and you can actually use it on your lips too. If it goes on a bit heavy i can just soften things with my 17 powder.

Finally, Lipstick, or rather a 'lack of lipstick'
I don't actually use lipstick, well i mean, i do own a lot and i sometimes 'touch-up' my lips on occasion. But mostly i prefer to use a lipliner and then various lipgloss colours (or clear)

I love my Urban Decay lipliner pencil, its exactly the same shade as my natural lips and is called 'Naked' so it perfectly matches my lips.

I hope you have enjoyed reading this blogpost as much as i have enjoyed writing it. I would really like to do more, maybe some online YouTube tutorials like my online friend Ashlee.

Next blogpost i shall update you on some other stuff happening in my life right now, Don't worry it won't be a whinge, i promise! xoxox

My Xmas, My Dad and My Future...

2012-01-13T13:00:00.001Z

My xmas was a nice relaxing one, many years of my life have meant that xmas has been busy with work. The entertainment industry like to party at xmastime and so normally I'm busy but this year was very quiet, i don't mind it, it was nice to get all my shopping done, wrapped and ready well in advance.

On the whole i enjoyed xmas, i got some nice presents including a really nice jewellery box and a new hoody which is sooooo cosy from my GF which i love.

Having come out to my family earlier this year i wasn't sure what to expect from them but it was nice when my mum and sister gave me makeup and clothes and other stuff which may seem quite normal, but to me it was a big thing cos it meant that i was being accepted for who i am.

Rewind back to a quiet night out in the pub a week before xmas and me and my friends were talking about my dad and how is has been dealing with me coming out to him.

He hasn't taken it well as we all know, but he actually stopped talking to me totally, he said to my mum that he would contact me when he was ready and that i shouldn't contact him. I respected his wishes and left him to it, but the thought of going through xmas without having him a part of it was actually quite upsetting.

So i sent him a text message, an olive branch, you might say. I simply asked him if he wanted to see me over xmas and he texted back yes.

So i arranged for a family day at my house on boxing day where i could cook everyone dinner and have a few hours with dad.

The day came and everyone enjoyed my food, i didn't poison anyone and nobody died. Unfortunately i think that this was the only good that came from the day. My dad pretty much ignored the elephant in the room. He didn't speak to me about things, he asked no questions and he didn't seem to be exactly happy. But he was friendly and talked to me about other stuff which was nice.

I didn't wear any makeup, i didn't wear a dress or anything else that might make him feel uncomfortable, I figured i would let him go at his pace. I was actually expecting him to at least ask me a couple of questions, maybe even just in private away from the rest of the family (even thought they all know) but no, he didn't say a word about it.
I wasn't sure whether i should be depressed about this or not. On one hand maybe i should think that his silence is acceptance of a sort, but on the other i can't shake the feeling that when he does eventually see me as 'me' he will freak out all over again. (I am sure this will become the subject of a future blog post).

Somebody recently posted a link to me about the top 5 regrets that people on their deathbed have, Its written by a nurse who specialises with end of life care, therefore she's seen a lot of people who have died.

There are the usual things such as 'Wish i'd not worked so hard' and 'Wish i'd kept in touch with friends' but the main regret that most of them had?

"I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.This was the most common regret of all. When people realize that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made."

It made me assured that who i am and what I'm doing is the right thing for me. I can't be happy if i am not me. I cannot live my life through other people's expectations.
Sure, its going to be quite tough when certain people find out previously what i kept as a close personal secret, but I'm not going to hide away, be miserable and secretive about something that i am not ashamed of.

There are still a few important people in my life who i have yet to tell, or have yet to be told (if other people do it for me) but soon enough i will be out and proud and i will hopefully still have all my friends and family around me and won't make me feel like a freak.

Much Love Samantha xoxox

Nottingham Invasion

2012-01-09T14:16:00.000Z

Me & Maddie

I guess i should start this blog post, where i left off last time...

I previously posted a few days before the Nottingham Invasion night out. For those reading this who don't know what the Nottingham Invasion is, It is a night out in Nottingham for Transgirls, their partners and friends.

Back in November a few of us went out for a quiet drink into town and we all said it sucked that there was no proper nights out for transgirls locally, or even within the midlands. Sure there are loads of gay pubs and clubs around but there are no other nights out such as Leeds First Friday or BNO.

So we decided to start one. December 16th was the first one and it went as expected. Nearly 40 girls turned out looking fine, friends, partners and others turned up and we even had a few people who just tagged along cos it was fun.

Loads of people have said thank you to me, but it wasn't all down to me, My friend Maddie who did more behind the scenes things, was also to blame:)

We have the next night out on Jan 20th if anyone wants to come along you can add yourself via the Facebook group/event pages.

Nottingham Invasion Map

The night out starts at the New Foresters pub on Glasshouse street from 8pm. The night starts out quiet with most girls gathering in circles around tables to sit and chat. Once a few drinks have been consumed and the free shots of jaffa cake, bubblegum or cherry have been distributed (thanks to the landlady being so generous) everyone loosens up a little bit and the night starts to build up around 10pm when there are girls on the dance floor, on the pool table and in the beer garden. Wall to wall trans you might visualise, you are bout far wrong.

We then walk down to the next pub around 11pm. (sadly this bar is now closed for refurb/new mgmt) but next door is the nightclub NG1. We get to the club just a little before midnight and it is free to get in. We soon take over the dance floor and bar areas. NG1 has just had a major refurbishment and it is all sparkly and fresh. loads of places to sit and chat if you don't want to be on the dance floor so it appeals to all ages and varieties of girls.

Around 2:30am everyone starts to get hungry so we walk back to the New Foresters pub, They serve food until 3:30am so we all munched on some chips and down even more copious amounts of alcohol before calling it a night at 4am.

December 2011

2011-12-12T18:10:00.000Z

It seems like every blog update recently posted includes details of my recent 'coming outs', In other words, I have told quite a few people about the real me.

One such person is a lifelong friend. The other day i went round to his house and we sat and chatted rubbish for a while. Now he knows that i've been having a few problems with my dad but he doesn't know the reason.

I told him that i was ready to tell him the reason why my dad was no longer talking to me. I went on to tell him that i needed to tell him something really important about me, something that he didn't know.

He said: "I already know what you are about to tell me". Well i was a little bit surprised but i figured he's spotted all the little subtle hints etc.... He said to me "Its ok if your gay" ... I was like "WTF? whoah hang on a second I'm not gay, I'm just trans". He looked a bit puzzled, and then i think relieved, and then i think a bit humoured lol

I told him the usual important bits and also answered a few questions, Y'know the usual ones about where i go, what i do, and do not do. He seemed pretty ok with the whole thing. I think he kinda knew that something was up, he said to me he was worried cos i was always a bit miserable recently.

Since i told him a couple of days have gone by and he has had a couple of questions about where i see myself in 5 years etc. I think he was quite relieved i wasn't the sort of tranny who wants to wear rubber dresses and ball gowns to work and that i was actually quite level headed about things lol.

I've pretty much completed all of my xmas shopping for this year. I've even wrapped everything up and put them under the tree! The most organised i have ever been!

Now i can let my hair down and get ready to party on friday night for the Invasion.

I just need to remember that Nottingham is now super strict on Bus Lane Camera's (or Code 34's) as the Penalty Charge Notice states!
Grrrrr i shall not be taking that route to the pub next time i go out!!!

Wifi Prank

2011-11-22T16:33:00.000Z

Every so often i like to change the name of my wifi network at home.

Today i have changed it to "Police_surveillance_#2 Target=XXXXX"

Instead of the XXXXX i actually put my neighbours name though, I know that his new telly always picks up on new wifi networks and displays them onscreen.

I can't wait for him to come home heeheehee.

Nottingham Invasion

2011-11-21T18:49:00.000Z

4weeks 3days since i came out to my dad, 4weeks 3days since he last spoke to me.
I wish he would just pick up the phone and say hello, even if it is for something unrelated.
But I'm not going to go on about it as there is so much other fun stuff going on with life at the moment which i would rather write about.

Nottingham Invasion
Some of you may not know but another local girl and I have organised a regular night out in Nottingham. Its called 'Invasion' because i am quite sure that a whole bunch of Tgirls and boys descending on some pubs and clubs will be just that!
The night out is on the 3rd Friday every month, this is so it does not conflict with other nights out such as Leeds First Friday or BNO. Also there is already a night out called Poptastic at the club on the last friday every month so our event won't clash. Take a look at full details here
It looks like it will be popular and if not then at least i tried.

On another note, business is going ok, I've picked up a couple of new clients which in turn means more spending money. Money which i can spend on cool stuff like my shiny new Macbook Pro17.
Which is what I'm on right now typing this. I love the new glossy screen, I love the multitouch trackpad, I even love OSX Lion, despite it not being compatible with a lot of my old programs such as Dreamweaver and Photoshop.
Its for this reason that I'm going to keep my old Macbook running Snow Leopard for a while so i can still use these programs without having to upgrade them again.

I'm just back from some xmas shopping in Nottingham, Thankfully it wasn't too busy cos i hate it when crowds of people make me claustrophobic, or when they just get in my way or just stop dead in their tracks and I'm trying to get past them and they are like a mobile chicane grrrr!
I did pick up some stuff for my family and i also picked up some stuff for myself too. I got myself the new Urban Decay 'Naked' eyeshadow palette, which is really nice and comes in a wicked case with mirror, eye primer potion and a new shadow brush.

A fun week ahead, Tomorrow is the xmas lights switching on in my little town Eastwood, Thursday night is drinks with the girls and friday night i have yet to fill with something to do, but will probably involve alcohol of some description.
Saturday night 4 of us drank 1.5bottles of wine, 1 bottle of baileys, 1 bottle of Raspberry sourz and 1 bottle of Grey Goose vodka, a real fun night which was totally last minute which made it all the more fun.

if anyone has any questions about Nottingham Invasion feel free to drop me a line...

x

Coming out to my Dad... [Part2]

2011-11-01T13:34:00.001Z

The other day i spoke to my mum about how dad is taking things and was quite surprised and disappointed with what i heard...

It's been nearly 2weeks since 'Spirit Day', When i sat him down and told him i was trans and he hasn't spoke to me since.
He was going to visit mum a few days later, I had printed a lot of info out and put them all together for him to read. A lot of info which would have given him more knowledge about being trans.
But he didn't show up and so they went unread.

My mum spoke with him on the phone but he just told her i was broken, like some faulty appliance, he didn't want to talk about it and that i had no respect for him.
He said he didn't want to educate himself about trans-stuff so therefore he wasn't going to come and pickup the stuff i'd printed for him.

But my mum insisted they should talk about things so they re-arranged a chat on Friday afternoon.
This was 5days ago and he did actually go round and talk... Just not about me! He was quite ok to talk about anything and everything else, but when it came to talking about me he refused.
He also refused to take the stuff i'd printed, and also refused to look at my website or even see any pictures of me.
My mum tried to tell him that i'm not a bush-pig, i'm not perverted etc etc but he just didn't want to know and was pre-occupied on his cellphone and just wanted to leave.

Before he left my mum told him that he should contact me in his own time and that i wouldn't pressure him with emails or calls. He told her that he would not be contacting me for the foreseeable future and that i should definitely not contact him either.

Mid-week, Dad and Sister were supposed to go for lunch and have a chat about things, luckily my sister is amazing and totally gets me, so she was going to talk with dad on my behalf. The morning of the lunch though my sis called him up to be told that under no circumstances should they talk about me. (he also pissed her off about other stuff, but that is not relevant here) So the lunch was cancelled.

So where am i at now?
My dad has effectively 'Buried his head in the Sand'. He doesn't understand anything about Transgenderism. He doesn't want to educate himself, So therefore without understanding he cannot move away from his pre-conceived negativity.

If i'm honest it pisses me off immensely that somebody so intelligent, can act so dumb.
I mean, fair enough if he understood transgenderism and then chose not to accept me, But to have ZERO understanding and therefore to blindly choose not accept me?
All this whilst having opinions on other subject matters after gaining an understanding such as Politics, This smacks of hypocrisy to me.

What Next?
Well i'm just going to leave him for a couple of weeks to deal with things in his own way. I can't contact him because he might think i'm trying to force him, or nagging. So i cant do a 'followup'.
I admit it does upset me that he is choosing to hurt me. While i cannot choose to be trans or not. He probably doesn't know this because he hasn't bothered to gain an understanding.
Fingers crossed for common sense to prevail!!!

Finally, I would like to thank my friends and family for supporting me. I know you all read this blog and it means a great deal to me that you chose to accept me. Thank you very much, i love you all xoxox

Coming out to my Dad... [Epic Fail!]

2011-10-23T18:08:00.000Z

My Dad is an old fashioned man i think it is fair to say. He is an easy going guy who likes to drive a sports car to stay youthful, He is the sort of man who likes a joke but can have a serious side and will happily watch the Parliament Channel all day so he can decide what to be grumpy about the next time he sees someone.

My friends and family have all told me that i should never tell my dad, That he won't understand, He will probably never talk to me again and even that he may punch me.
I believed that this view was probably jaded as they dont see the funny side of him as i do. They just see the old fashioned, grumpy old man, Who often appears quite set in his ways and some may say narrow minded.

Nevertheless on Thursday i went round to see my dad with the intention of coming out to him.
Out of respect I didn't want him to be the last person to be told.

I sat there and after around 1hour of idle conversation i told him i had something serious to talk about and went on to tell him that i was Transgendered. I dont think he understood what i meant so i switched to laymans terms, I told him i basically wore women's clothes.

At first he thought i was telling him a joke and didn't believe me. I told him i was deadly serious and that i have felt like this my entire life and that it was something i felt he should know about.

He sort of sat there in silence, clearly uncomfortable.
I said there was some important stuff he needed to know and continued to say that i wasn't Gay, I dont fancy men, I'm not into anything kinky or sexual. That is was not something i felt uncomfortable or ashamed of and that in fact i am proud to be different.

Still silence... oh dear he is taking this badly im thinking. His hands were clawing at the arms of the chair he was sat in.
So i ask him if there is anything he wants to know and he told me that 'I was no longer perfect in his eyes, I was ruined, spoiled. I was no longer his son'

As i was prepared for a little bit of negativity i had some backup with me in the form of some nice photos on my iPad to show him. I was about to show them when he followed up with 'You should not tell anyone else about what you do in your private life, You should only do it at home and never ever go out the house. You will get laughed at and your head smashed in if you ever go out'

Part of me wanted to tell him not to be so old fashioned, but they are his honest thoughts and he has a right to think whatever he likes. I did try to educate him a little bit but was met with a lot of resistance. I never even got a chance to show him any of my photos because he was not in any mood to understand. I think if had pushed it and tried to show him a photo he would have thrown my iPad away.

Kenny Everett

I believe that his perception of trans people lies somewhere between Kenny Everett doing his 'Best Possible taste character' and a 'perverted sexual deviant'. I am positive that he does not understand that there are some of us out there that dont get sexual kicks from it, That we do it to feel normal and that we are not all hairy monsters wearing stockings and silk knickers for thrills.

I hope that when i next speak to him tomorrow he will have tried to understand what being transgendered is actually about, I hope that he has decided to not ignore me for the rest of my life. I hope that he doesn't look at me like i am some sort of freak.

Unfortunately, Although i have been on the scene for a long time i actually dont know of any resource to send him. If anyone knows of a resource which 'tells old fashioned parents how 'normal' their transgendered grown up kids are' I would welcome anything that may help.

At the moment my mum and my sister are in touch with him, In fact i've just had a text from my mum saying dad is going round to see her for a chat tomorrow so fingers crossed he gains a bit more of an understanding.

The thing that upsets me the most?
It's not the fact he doesn't understand about transgenderism, This can be forgiven as up until now he has had no need to understand it.
It's not the harsh things he said to me about me being 'broken and not perfect' 'not his son' etc
It's not even the misconception that he thinks its all perverted and sexual.

It's that everyone else predicted that he would react badly. I was thinking that i knew him better, that he would be ok, that he would tell me that it didn't matter and that he still loved me no matter what i looked like.
I feel a bit of a twat for thinking that i knew him. That everyone else was proved right and i was wrong.

Do i regret telling him?
No, because i am not ashamed of just being me. Being transgendered is something that i cannot deny, it is something that is a part of my core and it is something that has shaped every aspect of my life.
Now he knows i can get on with living my life more openly. I don't have to ignore the door when he surprise visits, I think that this is surely better in the long run.
If nothing else my mental health will be better and i will not have as much stress trying to hide things from someone i love.

[Insert 'witty title' here]

2011-09-27T18:27:00.001Z

Butler and Wilson | Swarovski Bracelet

Running a business can be a little bit like feeding a habit. You want to ultimately sit back and relax and let others earn you the money. But sometimes you just have to get stuck in and do stuff yourself otherwise it wont get done.

I had this situation at the weekend, I was looking forward to sitting back and letting other people do the 'actual work' part and then i can be the boss and flounce around making it look like im there for any other reason than collecting the payment!

But many of my 'minions' let me down at the weekend, Thus meaning i had to actually do everything myself. Quite a novel situation because there are certain things i had to do which ive not done in many years. stuff that normally gets delegated to the youngest newbies, the sort of tasks that they really hate doing but that actually unbeknownst to them, is actually really important to developing their skill set.

So it was unusually nice to have to do some of the more mundane stuff like sweeping up the stage. I found it kind of cathartic, a little bit relaxing you might say!

So another sucessful job done, i get to spend my earnings! And no better way than to head up to Venezia Designs in Doncaster. Venezia were showcasing some of their jewellery and shoes at the last Nottingham Chameleons meeting. I was instantly attracted to the shiny shiny bling like a magpie to tinfoil.

So i went to the shop this afternoon and bought some of the stuff i had seen on Thursday.
They showed me around the showroom and upstairs too.
So many times i see the question asked on internet forums; "Where can i get my hair/wig styled?"
Well, upstairs is a really private boudoir type room, Its got a big chair and a huge mirror and you can go and get your wig or hair styled there in private. It's not like a hair salon at all, You and the stylist are pretty much the only people that could fit in the room, Its actually quite booshie, i really liked the look of it. So next time someone asks this question i'm going to suggest this place and so should you if you trust my judgement (which you should:)

I will post some pics of this jewellery on friday cos i'm wearing it out on thursday night, A night out with the girls in Leicester so i'm sure there will be a camera floating around somewhere to grab a decent snap.

Handbags at Dawn!

2011-09-13T13:14:00.001Z

Louis Vuitton - Mahina XL

Something has been happening recently which makes me confused. Let me expand...

I just got back from doing some business out the country and while i was in Dubai i picked up a nice new handbag. The bag seems to have caused some controversy for want of a better word.
A few girls on Facebook expressed their disgust that i would buy a $3,500 handbag when there is so much poverty in the world. A couple of other girls told me i was nuts for spending this much on a bag and last night at the pub i got a little bit of ribbing by the girls for spending so much when i could get a fake on for 10quid off the market.

I am lucky to earn enough to be quite comfortable, I'm not a millionaire and i dont have money to just go and buy a new car every year. But i do have a small amount of disposable income to treat myself to nice things.
$3.5k didn't seem a big deal at the time of purchasing cos we were all buying stuff from the shop and we probably spent over $10k in total on various bits. We got a special discount anyway so i only ended up paying $2,400 (around £1,500GBP) so i know its a good investment and i can sell it on anytime and break even.
I guess the question is 'Should i feel guilty for being able to afford such nice things'?

Before i went away on business I went round to see my sister (the day after i told my Mum). I felt quite guilty about not telling her sooner. She told me she was a bit upset that i didn't trust her and tell her sooner. I guess that i was wrong when i assumed that she knew about me.
We had a nice chat and i hope that she continues to treat me the same way as before. She had a good look through some of my pictures and i guess she liked some of my clothes cos she gave a few nice comments which made me happy. I am looking forwards to the first time we go out together for a drink or something but i'm going to leave this up to her timescale, i dont want to rush her into something she might feel uncomfortable doing. Although these days i dont expect any negative comments after all this is 2011 not 2004 lol.
She knows about my website, as does my mum so i wonder if they found this blog yet (hello mum, hello sis if you are reading this!)

Also check out my latest YouTube video here, It is a little video showing the effects of my Botox over 30days. (also showing the Tanning effect of 1 week of intense Chinese, Middle Eastern and Spanish sunshine on my face lol)

Telling / Keeping Mum (The long awaited Part 2!!!)

2011-08-24T15:58:00.001Z

Can you remember my blogpost from November last year called 'Telling / Keeping Mum'??

Guess who i told last night?

I went round with my letter and some pictures. I think she thought it was a joke until she saw my photos. She told me i looked like my sister and told me i looked good in the photos.

What did i say in the other blogpost though? I said she would be cool about it and she totally was!

I guess it makes buying xmas and birthday presents for me a whole lot easier lol!

x

Be Delicious!

2011-08-20T11:34:00.001Z

My new hairstyle!

So last night was pretty up and down. On the upside i went and got my hair did* so was feeling and looking fab, but on the downside i had nobody to go out with. I was a proper loner last night!

Still not to be deterred i went into Nottingham for a drink on my own (i know, i'm such a saddo aren't i?) I was looking for a place to park my car and i found a sweet little gap pretty much straight away. So i parked up and just as i'm about to get out, someone opens my door for me. Its the bouncer of the club i've just parked in front of. I thanked him and walked straight past a small queue of people waiting to get in. I got waived straight through the entrance and into the club where i got myself a coke from the bar.

I'm stood at the bar of this really nice club reflecting on what just happened, reflecting on what the people must have thought about some random girl arriving in her Porsche and parking right outside the doors and getting the VIP treatment. I actually laughed out loud a little (doubly saddo i know!!).
It was one of those moments when i really wish someone was with me to share the experience with cos it was super funny!

I then went across the road to an absolute crappy place called the Hogshead, it was like a proper student shit-hole. Didn't enjoy it, left after one drink and went home to a KFC.

My girl was pretty drunk last night when she got back from her night out and we had a whole debate about me being untidy and me leaving a bottle of DKNY 'Delicious' perfume in the living room for the last year.
I was like but thats your perfume isnt it? She reckoned it was mine.

The offending perfume!

We spent 10minutes going back and forth about who owned it.
I said i felt dead guilty cos i kept pinching it from her cos i liked the smell.
She said she wasn't going to move it cos it was mine.

Neither of us can remember who actually bought it for whom, However she went and fetched it and gave it to me officially, So now i dont have to feel guilty about stealing my own perfume lol.

On a side note, the keen eyed ones amongst you may have noticed this blog has changed a little in layout. I did this because i tend to update my website less and less. What with Flickr and Facebook, I think that the SamanthaTgirl site has become more of a 'hub of content' a jumping off point for my other stuff, Not that i ever plan to remove it.
So this Blog has been updated a little with the little Google gadgets to the left so you can see other Blogs i enjoy reading and also to follow this Blog if you so wish!

Samantha xoxox

*Intentional grammar error. One does not get ones hair 'done'. One gets ones hair 'did' Its something i learned from my South London friends.

The 'See-Saw' of Karma is starting to tip in my favour!

2011-08-17T11:31:00.002Z

New Shoes!

...And about bloody time too!

I got my far fixed by an independent Porsche garage and instead of paying what the Official Porsche dealer quoted me (£1,948) i ended up paying just £360 cash so i am now very happy (and nicely chilled when im driving)
Everyone kept telling me i was stupid getting the AirCon fixed on a soft-top, i could just put the roof down but im a little bit environmentally un-friendly, i like to have the roof down AND have the AC blasting too lol

I have disputed the insurance company (again) about my burglary, This most recent one will be my last effort. i dont know what else i can do to change their mind. I now know that garages are not the same as the home so i'm expecting them to come back with a maximum offer of £2,000. a long way off what was stolen, but every little bit will help so fingers firmly crossed!

To cheer myself up a little bit i thought i'd splash out on some new nails yesterday, These ones are Gel instead of Acrylic and to be honest they look exactly the same. The cost the same. They kinda feel the same (maybe gel is a little lighter). My natural nails are sooo good i dont actually need to get them done but somehow i feel better when they are done.

Tomorrow is another trip to Dr Temple the Botox god. Here is something you might not know about Botox, It takes about a week to start working properly, to feel the effects and to see them. It lasts around 3-4months depending on the site treated. But when it wears off, it wears off really fast, like in a day!
I have a single Botox treatment in my forehead (around 6 injections, 1 vial of the stuff), I have this treatment cos it stops you sweating. No sweat at all... Absolutely ZERO perspiration from anywhere north of my eyeballs!
However when it wore off while i was doing some work in the garden the other day i was suddenly aware of a river flowing down my face... I was straight on the phone to book another appointment lol.

Friday will see another visit to the hair salon, my hair is in need of attention and i love catching up with my stylist about stuff. She recommended Dr Temple to me and i always tell other Tgirls to go see her if they are nervous. I must ask her if any other girls have been to see her yet.

I bought some new designer heels at the weekend and they may just replace the Kurt Geigers i always seem to wear on a night out. These are so comfy and i also had some change out of £100 in the sale (no, i did not go looting before anyone asks lol), which is a bonus cos i saw them for well over £200 last time i went out!

Karma

2011-08-03T09:11:00.004Z

Every so often i get hit by a string of happy coincidences, Y'know the sort of thing when everything seems to go just right. You happily stumble across the perfect bargain in the shop, you go to pay and find £20 on the floor. You decide to spend a couple of quid of that found money on a lotto ticket and win a further £500.

I call this 'Good Karma' because i dont believe in 'fate' or 'luck'. It was Newton that said "Every action has an equal and opposing reaction" So it stands to reason that there is such a thing as 'Bad Karma'...

...And when Bad Karma hits it seems to really hit hard. I dont want to let this post spiral into a depressing 'oh poor me' type affair so i shall simply list the low-lights of recent times.

You all know i got broken into and everything stolen (nearly £30k worth), Well the insurance company declined my claim. They think they should'nt pay a single penny. I am disputing it but i dont fancy my chances!

My air conditioning in my Porsche has broken and its gonna cost thousands to fix it!

Some government funding i applied for (which i may add, i am fully entitled to) has also been declined. So this is gonna cost me another few grand.

And finally i just got deported from the USA due to a technical problem with my VISA. A problem that the State Dept. later admitted was their fault and that i should not have been deported. This mistake has cost me over £10k in lost revenue.

To top it all off, i now need to attend the US embassy for interviews and if you've ever been there before you will know what a pain in the arse it is cos you cant take any keys, cellphones, laptops, bags, or anything else into the embassy. You end up leaving all your stuff at a locker in the train station!

Anyways..... On a more cheery note, I still have my red hair and its getting pretty long now. I would prefer it a little shorter cos its kinda in that annoying length where it flows off my shoulders and flicks up out of control.

I went along to Nottinghamshire Pride festival at the weekend, gorgeous weather meant it was a lovely walk around the stalls.

I was a little surprised at how few Transfolk i saw, I maybe spotted a handful all day, I know we are kinda the minority at this sort of festival but still i didn't see anyone i knew. Literally nobody!

I found a little side stall run by Re-Creation. They are a trans group who have weekly meetings at a pub in Notts. I might pop along to one and check it out. Although i didn't spot any MtF's or FtM's at the stall so not sure what to make of it. I think i shall remain open minded until i check out a meeting.

And on the subject of meetings on my last blogpost i did promise i would report back on my visit to The Crown in Derby. Well its a very nice little pub, very quiet when i was there but also there were a great bunch of girls who i met for the first time (Gillian, Penny, Fran, Sarah, Roxy - see i have a great memory). I can recommend this place and will be going again, drop me a line if you want to tag along.

Anyway i'm off to do some sunbathing whilst the sun is still shining:)

xoxoxox

Recent Happenings...

2011-05-10T08:54:00.004Z

Hello everyone,

I've had a nice relaxing couple of weeks where minimal stress has been involved. The insurance claim is still ongoing and i try to remain optimistic, however the loss adjuster has already warned me that the route being taken by Esure will probably mean i get a raw deal. But that is at the back of my mind, i cannot do anything until they contact me now so its something i am not worrying about.

A couple of weeks ago i went and had my hair restyled and also decided to go bright red! To get the most vivid bold colours you have to bleach your hair first but this really is not good and damages every single hair so i went for the kinder option of dying without bleaching, sure its not as vivid, but my hair feels so soft still. It looks great in the sunlight when all the red shows through i love it.
So i had it cut midlength again, i keep promising myself i shall grow it long but i dont like how it starts to flick out when it gets below shoulder length so i keep it around neck length and i can do more with styling etc.

This brings me onto my newest toy, my new hair straighteners. I was going buy some GHD ones as they seem to be the brand in fashion at the salons right now, but my stylist Kerry uses a different brand and swears by them. So i bought one. Wow they are great! They are called 'The Vibe' and they do actually vibrate so that running them through your hair is totally smooth and never snags. (You can get them at: http://www.wantthelook.com/shop/product/Womens-Electrical-Hair-Equipment-Hair-Straighteners/Vibe-Ceramic-Hair-Striaghteners-by-Hair-Tools/535 ). I got the black ones and they are wicked. Definitely reccomend!!!

I went to Notts Chams the other night too, nice to have a chat with the usual faces Lynn, Maddie and Sophie. As always at chams we talk for ages and have a laugh, i do remember kung fu kicking a chair over but thats a story for another day.

Then on Friday i met up with my friend Emma Jewkes (the not so secret life of Emma blogger) and we went shopping around Sheffield's Meadowhall (or Meadowhell as some call it) it was nice to to hang out, Emma had birthday presents to buy, i was on a mission for a specific pair of Uggs at the right price. We had a spot of lunch and spent a good 3hours shopping. Emma got all her presents, I found some Ugg Classic short boots in Grey andwe said goodbye to each other and i headed of to my local salon to get my nails done.

I wanted gels but it was nearly 5pm and no time so i opted for acrylics which still look wicked but take slightly less time to do. A simple french polish so i can go over them with my ubërcool Chinaglaze Crackle later this week for a change up.

We went up to Leeds for the LFF event, Whilst getting ready at our home in Nottingham we lost track of time and didnt actually leave until around 10pm, we arrived in Leeds around 11pm so perfectly timed lol. We caught up with Maddie, Gayna, Bobby and Sue and their partners in Bar Fibre before we headed up to The Loft nightclub.

Last time i went to The Loft it was free but this time got charged £2 still cheap so paid up and headed to the empty dancefloor. It got busier a little later so we had some drinks, got propositned by a swinger, some girl started pointing at me cackling in a high pitched voice "i know you, i know you, i know you" ... Stranger danger i thought, leave the mentalist and back away. Lol
Later in the night i had a great compliment by some random pissed up guy who staggered up to me and slurred "i dont know what the fuck you are, but you look fucking great" and then staggered off to presumably be sick in a gutter. Still a compliment is a compliment so i took it nonetheless!

I later found out that the club has a policy where it only charges real girls and real boys. Tgirls get in for free so i was pissed that i paid to get in but on the other hand i was happy that they didnt even consider i was tgirl yay!

During the week i also found time to check out a new clinic near me in Mansfield and had another round of Botox, this time it was 8-10 injections (all painfree) and it only cost me £120! Thanks for the reccomendation Kerry! The funny thing about the appointment was that cos i was a new patient i had told the receptionist about being trans etc just incase there were any complications. I got upstairs to the Doctor who invited me in, he was very friendly, "Do come in Miss Hewit, Would you like a drink? How have you been? Why do you feel you want Botox?" then came the funny questions....

Him: "Are you currently pregnant, or do you think you may become pregnant in the next fee weeks?"

Me: "er i dont think so"

Him: "Are you currently breastfeeding?"

Me: "er no, definitely not"

So a few jabs later and i was happy and on my way downstairs to pay, the bubbly receptionist was keen to find out how i'd got on with him and we had a chat about how nice he was. I did joke about him asking me about pregnancy etc and she just laughed and said " oh we just never told him you were trans so he doesnt know" lol So that made me smile as i left.
1 week on and my forehead feels amazing already i know it will be even more wicked in another couple of weeks. I dont have Botox for wrinkles or lines cos i dont have any yet im too young, instead i have it done to combat "sweaty forehead syndrome" as i call it. The side effect of botox is that it inhibita your sweat glands and slows down / stops sweat production at that site. As the forhead is visible and we are coming up to summer i just wanna be prepared.

Next blogpost i will tell you about last nights visit to The Crown Inn, a pub in Derby where i met some lovely local girls.

xoxox

Insurance Update...

2011-03-14T12:45:00.003Z

So i just got off the phone to the home insurance people, they have appointed a loss adjuster who will come round next week and take inventory of all the stuff i have (and now no longer have) in my house.

The thieves stole somewhere between £20-£27k worth my my stuff, the exact cost is to be decided by the loss adjuster because apparently the price i paid for them doesn't matter. It is down to the current high street price as decided by the loss adjuster. Either way i knew i was not going to be totally covered.

My insurance (maybe) only covers me for upto £15k, however i just learned that because everything stolen was classed as "high-risk" (they stole all my music stuff) the insurance company will only cover me upto the 'high-risk' limit of £7k. So not a total loss, however my argument is that some of the stuff they call high risk isn't actually high risk at all.

Fair enough, a DVD player, a CD player or some nice studio speakers are high risk i admit that.

But how can they call my headphones which i paid £600 for, 'high risk'? How can they call my plastic cases which i keep my cables in 'high risk'.

How can they justify calling my electric distribution box 'high risk'?

I just dont get it.

OK to be honest, i know i'm still ruined for over £20k and you may ask why i'm stressing over a few thousand quid here and there. But to me, every little bit is important.

They are telling my that i'm 'under-insured' and that although this normally affects how much they pay out, they have pretty much said they will pay out the maximum limit in my case which is £7k so i can go and buy the important stuff back again. But it still means i need to find a hell of a lot of my own money to even get close to what i used to own and still be useful.

Looks like i have another week of stress as they are not coming round till next monday. I just hope they dont find some legal loophole i overlooked and get out of paying me. I don't think i could handle that.

Is there anyone here that knows how to define High/Low risk items according to eSure, and that may be able to explain to me how this all works?

I don't understand how they can call a piece of furniture (albeit studio furniture for putting rackmount in) high risk. I dont know how they can call my parcan system 'high risk'. There is nothing specific here in the policy document about lights, should i try to argue this one? they cost me a few hundred quid and i've only ever used them for 2 garden parties.

Thank you to everyone that has sent me supportive messages, Yes it does cheer me up to know that there are people out there (some i know personally, some i do not) who care enough to take the time to write to me and see im ok.

xoxox

My Lowest Point

2011-03-13T13:00:00.003Z

This is the most depressing point of my entire life. I have never felt as low as i do right now.

A couple of years ago i took a big risk and went self employed, it went ok and i picked up more work and increased my stock and got even busier.

On Tuesday night thieves broke into my garage and stole everything i own.

Total loss so far is estimated to be nearly £30k. I am hoping that my insurance will cover me for at least a small portion of this amount. If not i dont know what i am going to do.

A couple of weeks ago i got into doing YouTube videos and uploaded a couple of me and my guitar and messed around with a few new ideas for makeup tutorials etc. Unfortunately since the break-in i have lost the passion for anything and everything.

Mostly i sit at home being depressed trying to remain optimistic about the insurance situation.

Sorry this is not a happy post everyone xxx

Born This Way

2011-02-21T21:31:00.003Z

I heard a funny joke the other day, its a bit sick but i found it funny....

Q: What sits in the kitchen and keeps getting smaller and smaller?
A: A baby combing it's hair with a potato peeler!

Sometimes i love to hear a sick joke. I also like Frankie Boyle too. I don't agree with a lot of the things he jokes about but nevertheless i still laugh hard!

Thank you to everyone who took the time to email me, to be honest i wasnt expecting so many messages. I thought maybe i would get a few but i got nearly 200! So this blog is here to stay. I dont think i could actually get on with Twitter like i can with this blog, How could i express my thoughts in 160 characters? Plus i kinda find sitting on my sofa writing this with a lemonade and a bag of sweets very relaxing.

I went to notts chameleons the other night. I got to catch up with the girls (and met a new girl called Nicole, who i'm sure was a tiny very femme size 6, You bitch! lol:) Trends wigs were there too and although i love my own hair i did feel a little bit jealous that i miss out on changing hairstyles on a whim. I was tempted to buy a wig but i was in chatterbox mode with Lynn and Sophie and didnt get a chance. oh well i suppose i could dust of my old wigs.

I got a good response to my first YouTube video too, its not one of those 'typical tranny-in-garden-manwalking' that you tend to see online, Its me playing my guitar. The link is on my website if you check it out please comment on it too.

Oh and i love the new Lady Gaga song

xXx

Oh no, One of "Those" blogposts is it?

2011-02-04T16:31:00.004Z

The good thing about Blogs i think, is i can write down what i'm thinking and send it out there. Sometimes i get replies, sometimes i hit 'dead air' and hear nothing back.

Here's the thing, i know i have a few followers of this blog, but i dont know how many in total. Some folk will no doubt im sure read this via a RSS reader in their email program. Did you know i have no idea who you are?

In an age of Evolution i find myself wondering if it would be better to knock this blog on the head and find someway to include a Twitter or Facebook feed into my website instead of this.

Either way, whilst i decide what i'm doing i would love to know how many of you read this site

So would you all be so kind as to "Say Hello via this link" Its totally anonymous (unless you wanna give me your bank details and inside leg measurement). Click the link, fill in my little form and tell me you actually read this.

Oh and on another note, let me introduce you to my latestlittle gem of a find.

Its a mousse eyeshadow by Rimmel and its called Colour Mousse 8hr, it goes on really easily and it lasts as long as it claims. The colours are a little bit limited to everyday shades but if you want something toned down its well worth £4.50 (they do 4 shades of brown, a few blues and a white mousse) The one i'm wearing everyday at the moment is 'Mocha' its the darkest one and suits darker skintones like mine.

The nail polish is also by Rimmel, it's 'Portabello Pink' and has the Xpress brush which i now cannot use any other type of brush it makes doing your nails so quick, easy and faultless everytime!

Anyway gotta go, Please dont forget to message me, i know its a pain in the arse if you are short on time, but the contact form i made takes less than 30seconds to use... honest! :)

xoxoxox

D is for..... Impulsive!

2011-02-02T20:39:00.002Z

It has been said by many people and on several occasions that i am impulsive.

On the outside i can well imagine that one moment i may be walking a metaphorical pathway and appear to meander off at a wild tangent for no apparent reason whatsoever, only to emerge on the same path having aimlessly detoured on a mere whim.

Some examples of my apparent impulsivity are more easily remembered when large sums of money have changed hands. Such as the time i once bought a rather expensive racing bike. This particular 'impulsive' purchase has a backstory (dont they all?).

I have always been keen on bikes, always enjoyed watching them on the television and ridden them since i was young. So when i was invited to ride on a professional track with a friend of mine who races professionally i jumped at the chance. I arrived with my standard bike and had a great time riding round for just a few hours, However that was all it took to get me bitten by the bug!

The next week i went and bought myself a racing bike and kit, a cost of around £7k.

Another example of my 'Impulsiveness' was last year when my XBOX360 got the RROD (Red Ring Of Death). I had a new game i really really wanted to play and when the RROD appeared i realised that i would be without my console for several weeks. I chose to jump in my car and buy a new console from GAME.

It can be the little things too, like walking into the supermarket and buying ice cream for dinner instead of pasta, Just because you know its gonna make you smile.

Now here's the thing, I actually don't think i'm 'Impulsive', I much rather prefer the term 'Decisive'.

I find that i tend to enjoy life more when i get on with things instead of equivocating, dithering or 'dilly-dallying' around!

That's not to say i'm the sort of person that blindly spends, The sort that doesn't understand the value of money or that doesn't research what it is i am purchasing. I do. In fact i might spend a whole week or month weighing up the pros and cons, looking logically at whatever i am about to do.

So with all this rationalisation and knowing that i am a logical thinker, All these things considered... What on earth possessed me to get my tongue pierced yesterday?

Cos it looks sexy, thats why:)

Happy New Y.... meh!.... cant be arsed

2011-01-19T16:30:00.002Z

Hello everyone,

I'm not really much of a AuldLangSyn kinda girl, i dont really get bothered by the clock ticking and another year approaching. The whole New Years Eve celebrations are perfectly enjoyable and fine until someone sticks a telly on and they do the whole 10 second countdown and then everyone hugs and kisses and says 'Happy New Year'...

Well this time round i had a way out of all this mush, As soon as the telly went on, i went to the toilets for a really long time, Returning around 12:10am, 'oh really? did i miss midnight??? aww no' i feign.

Xmas was a happy time for me. To be honest i might rant on a little bit but i'm actually quite a happy girl, i dont really get too bothered by anything so nothing plays on my mind for more than a few hours. Anyway, xmas was nice because i saw lots of family, ate some nice food and received some lovely presents. My girlfriend bought me some bits and bobs but my fave was some new Models Own makeup, supposed to be really good so i guess when i next glam up for a proper night out i shall try it out, Its not really daytime makeup.

I still haven't found the right time to mention Samantha to my mum, i spoke to my girl about it and she reckons my mum would react the best out of everyone we know. So whats stopping me? I dunno, maybe its easier to let her just 'find out', maybe i dont feel the need to tell her as strongly as i did before? If i did tell her then what would change apart from maybe she finds it easier to buy presents for me at xmas and birthdays lol. I doubt i would go out drinking with her, we dont have that sort of relationship. But she is a cool mom so who knows when i might tell her.

Yesterday i went and got a laser topup, my chin hair recently got a bit of a growth spurt so i had to get like 10-15 hairs zapped before they got too annoying. I also had my chest done again.

Let me tell you about the first time i had my chest done back in October...

I prepared the area by shaving closely like you do with your face, they basically drew this grid on my chest, a white chinagraph pencil with each grid square the size of a Rubiks cube. Each square needed around 25zaps.

Starting at my neckline it was fine, we were working on the same power level as used on my face. Moving down my cleavage hurt a little bit but it was bearable. Then moving outwards towards and around each nipple... OMFG! Wow this really made me just about cry, they pain was intense! But i got through it and i had massive redness for about 4days over the entire treated area. Then the hairs al started falling out (some with the help of my tweezers lol). It took 12-14days for the area to be totally free of any hair, free of any redness, spots and blemishes you get from treatment.

Then my chest was totally smooth for at least 8weeks which was lovely not having to shave every morning like normal. Yesterday's laser pain was 50% as bad as last time so i can tell its working. yay.

Anyway i gotta get back to playing Fable on xbox... love this game!!!

xoxoxox

Pre Xmas jibber jabber

2010-12-15T15:55:00.003Z

What have i been upto on the run up to xmas so far?

Well, unusually for me i have already done all of my present shopping and i've even wrapped most of them too! Quite organised for me as i dont normally start thinking about my shopping till December. This year i have had more time on my hands.

Running my own business brings with it several benefits, Such as picking my own working hours, I get to decide what to do each day, Certain tax benefits and best of all I'm da Boss!

There are downsides though, such as I end up working some crazy hours cos its on my head to sort things, I am responsible for earning my money, i dont get money handed to me unless i work. No cosy monthly salary for me if i sit on my arse and do nothing.

So when quite a bit of pre xmas work was cancelled i had to find things to fill my time. Too late to get more work so i did my xmas shopping instead.

I got a lot of it online, the usual website suspects that we all use, Amazon, Play, Ebay etc. But some things are better bought in person. Besides what girl doesnt like shopping?:)

So i've been out most days into Notts, Derby, Leicester, Sheffield and EVEN Mansfield lol.

I do however have to confess that for everything i've bought for other people, i seem to have bought things for myself. Like when i was in Boots, i got some family 3for2 deals and then ended up buying a shitload more makeup just cos the makeup girl said i looked like her sister and thought i was cute. I might add that of course i was not in Bob mode lol That would just be weird.

I ended up spending £120 in Debenhams on a new Matthew Williamson dress and cardigan, I then blew another £100 on Shoes in Schuh. Followed by at least £160 in River Island on new tops and jeans.

The good thing is that im keeping all of these clothes cos they look hot. I particularly love my new dress, its very classy and its my first official 'Party dress / Going out posh frock'

Ooooh and we also got a new toy... Xbox kinect, wow its freakin awesome, i cant move any of my joints as i type this i feel like i've been paralyzed, i have been playing it so much i've really killed my flaying limbs. But its a great way to have fun, stay warm and keep fit. Espesh this time of year when its shitty weather and dark nights. The sports game is wicked i can throw javelins and run 100m and play bowling all from my living room!

The other day me and my girlfriend went to BNO at Pink Punters and had another really good night. Although i really hate the lighting in the Premier Inn rooms. Its a bit basic. Im not beng snobby but im used to staying in Four Seasons Hotels and Intercontinental's so the Premier inn whilst being mega mega cheap at £58 is also a bit er... 'Bland'.

Next month V wants to stay nearer Pinks so i booked us into the Campanile just across the road, we dont need to wait/pay for a taxi which will be cool. Hopefully the rooms will be better. I might take a pro makeup mirror and some lights from 'the wardrobe department' lol

One thing that did piss me off a bit about BNO this month was the taxi on the way there. I called up Raffles and they said 40mins so i called another company 'MK city cabs' who said 10-15mins. I swear down that we were stood in reception waiting for this fucking taxi for almost 45mins. Then all of a sudden a raffles car pulls up at the same time as MK cabs so it was like who do we go with? Turns out the Raffles car was for someone else so we jumped into the MK Cabs 'pope-mobile' (seriously it was like some sort of mongole-truck' with windows) We were wearing seatbelts of course but still was hanging on to the door handles for our dear life. The driver didn't get a tip!

But we arrived around midnight and had a really good time, met more friends and had a good dance wearing my new dress and shoes, which started to make my feet ache after 20mins on the dancefloor.

Next time i'll try and remember to update you about my chest-laser-hair-removal. Its going well but more info next time, right now i have to take part in another discus throwing competition. Wish me luck :)

xoxoxox

Telling / Keeping mum...

2010-11-27T18:59:00.003Z

My mum is one of the most easy going people i know, and i know a lot of people.

She is the sort of person that takes whatever life throws at her in her stride. She also seems very happy go lucky. When i think of the most accepting/understanding person i know she is at the top of my list.

I reckon i could go rob a few banks and go to prison and she would tut and tell me i was 'a bit silly' She is the sort of woman who when you need to rely on someone she is the one who wont let you down.

So how come i've not yet told her about Samantha?

Well the truth is i think she has always known and not said anything, Apart from the time when i was 17ish and she sat me down and asked me who the ankle boots and blouse in my wardrobe belonged to? (my sister had found them) I bluffed my way out by telling her they belonged to a girlfriend, She pressed me slightly and asked if they were mine, if i recall rightly she even said that it would be ok if they were, However i stuck to my lie and thus created what i often refer to as one of the major "forks in my life".

A time where had i told the truth my life could have taken a different direction. Maybe where i am now, is where i could have been 5 or 6 years ago. Not a long time you may think but look back at your own life at every tiny little thing that has happened to you since 2004/5.

I dont have a big regret about keeping the truth from her, but i do regret lying to hide the truth.

So recently i have been thinking about telling a few more 'select' folks about Samantha. People who i can trust, people i love and care about and i know care about me.

Why 'come clean' now?

I heard about a friend of mine whose mum had died recently and they said they regretted not asking certain things, regretted not talking more, regretted not telling her he was gay.

I dont want to have these regrets. I love my mum and i think she would appreciate knowing that her possible suspicions were correct and that i have turned out to be a nice 'girl'.

I dont want this post to sound morbid and i dont want it to seem like i am unloading a 'burden' onto her because i only want to tell her because i love and want to share a big part of my life with her.

If i tell her, there is a slight risk of her laughing at me and telling me i'm weird but i think if thats the worst case i could deal with that.

I think she would tell my little sister (even if i asked her not to) i think she would mention something and tell her to keep it to herself until i bring it up with her. Truth is my sister is the next person i would trust to tell.

I thought about wording this post in such a way that i could print it off and give it to her to read, But to be honest i dont feel it is a big deal. Its not like im telling her im gay, or im moving to Australia or i've robbed a bank and im off to prison.

So i think the sit down chat is the best way forward.

Please give me your thoughts and support.

xoxoxox

Some recent musings.....

2010-11-26T15:00:00.002Z

Do you know what really pisses me off?.... well actually quite a few things, but one of the things that really annoys me on a daily basis is people driving with their fog lights on.

Now we all occasionally forget to switch our main beam off sometimes and blind oncoming traffic. Usually a flash and a wave dismisses this forgetfulness and its not too annoying. However mega intensity Xenon million watt front facing fog lights that you deliberately put on and LEAVE ON... grrrr

If you are driving behind me and you unnecessarily have your fog lights on i will slow down to a crawling pace until you overtake me, i dont care how time consuming this may be for you. I will then drive behind you with my full beam on until i deem punishment served!

Another thing that pisses me off is SkyTV channel 371... Why does that channel have to be 10 times louder than any other music channel? There really is no need. Do they think louder is better? If i could remove this channel from my Skybox that would be great. but when you're flicking through the music channels and FunkyD 'Are u gonna Bang Do?' cuts in like a Mike Tyson punch to the face at 135decibels i find this really annoying.

And while i'm on a rant why the hell should i pay 80p to park outside my chipshop and run in and buy chips for £1.20 and then run straight out? I aint parking for a full hour, Im not sitting and eating in my car, Im not going shopping round my shitty town centre... EASTWOOD COUNCIL ARE YOU LISTENING??? How they make enough money from parking fee's to justify a parking warden to patrol like a Nazi and swoop on the casual 'chip shop parker'... oh no, this girl aint taking no more! its time to make a stand i say!!

There are loads of other things that piss me off, too many to write on this post... Maybe next time i'll whinge some more lol

xoxox

Camera advice needed...

2010-10-16T21:35:00.002Z

So i'm in need of a new camera. Mine is a wicked tiny handbag friendly sized Fuji finepix 450 however i went to use it the other day and everything is all blurry unless you physically hold the lens out with your free hand.

I sort of have to stretch the lens to full length or it gives everything that fuzzy "just had 15 beers" kind of look.

So im looking to buy a new one. I dont need 15 billion pixels or anything mega like that cos all the photo's are for putting online anyway and i rarely need them to be bigger than 2m pixels otherwise i end up cropping and downsizing them.

So my question to all you girls, boys and preferably photographers is what is a really good thin, compact camera to buy for under £150?

xoxoxox

2010-10-14T17:50:00.002Z

I had another 'first' today... I used hair straighteners, WOW seriously i cannot believe i was afraid of them for so long!!

Mega mega layers in my hair, for the styles i want i could even chuck my hairdryer away and solely use straighteners!!

So impressed with the results im gonna put some posh slap on and head out to Notts Chams methinks!

xoxox

"Anatomy of Rainbow Eyes"

2010-10-09T18:09:00.005Z

Hiya girls n boys....

So last night i did my rainbow eyes again for BNO.

Here they are... I call this photo "Anatomy of Rainbow Eyes" lol (full size image on my website)

I have a palette of most of the individual colours with the exception of the White and Violet, These are from Mac cosmetics.

Mascara is 'Falsie's' by Maybelline BTW this is a wicked awesome mascara, very easy to apply and does thicken up lashes!

Black eyeliner (top and bottom lash line) is just a cheapo one i've had ages, its quite a chunky one.

So, What do you think? Have a go, its a really fun look and easy to do too!!

Samantha xoxox

PS, Nice to meet everyone again last night at PP. Sorry if i missed you:)

The most painful thing i've ever done...

2010-09-30T17:20:00.002Z

I've done a few painful things in my life both accidental and on purpose.

Like when i broke my leg this summer, that was really painful for a nearly 4 weeks. The previous year when i was bitten by a spider and and had necrotizing fasciitis, that was pretty painful too.

Also reminds me of the time i got my finger caught in a tin opener and had to actually 'unwind' it to release my finger... That was also a painful memory.

Of course certain pain has been self inflicted for 'the greater good'. Im talking about things like plucking eyebrows, lets put this at 1/10 on the pain scale. Next up would be getting the dreaded shaving rash. Back in those days i would have my plan to go out and have everything perfect and then BAMM shaving rash would make me look terrible and i couldnt go out for fear of looking like a freak. I would put shaving rash 2/10 on the pain scale.

Then i had laser on my face and although the pain gets less intense with each successful session i would put this in the 5 or 6/10 area. i still get the odd facial hair that makes me go 'eek' when zapped.

Waxing is probably around the same sort of pain.

But today i went to have my chest hair all lasered off... Wow it was like walking repeatedly into a nettle bush over and over again. We did have the laser cranked pretty high to ensure optimum results. But wow i had to say stop a few times to catch my breath.

I know it will get easier the more sessions i have (if i bother with anymore).

Im putting this treatment at 9/10 on the pain scale. I can only liken certain areas getting zapped to being constantly jabbed with needles.

The redness took about 3hours to go down, i always put a cold damp cloth over my face (or chest) post treatment and it really really helps to keep that area as cold as possible. even use ice if its around.

Off shopping to Sheffield Meadowhall with my GF on saturday. i need to get a new outfit for BNO as i have been photographed in everything i already own lol

OK... So it wasn't the best feeling, but it wasn't too bad.

2010-09-29T10:39:00.002Z

Waxing no longer eludes me!! I am She-Ra, fighter of all wayward body hair and smooth skin extraordinaire!!

The only painful bits were my inner thigh, a couple of fuzzy back bits (curse my hairy ancestral monkey genes!) and my left knee hurt the most...

Why my left knee? .... Well back in August i fell off of a loading dock backwards and although i landed ok without too much pain, a huge box fell off and crunched my knee. I went for xrays a few weeks later cos the pain hadnt gone and yep, they told me it was broken:(

Too late to really do anything about it i just rested it as much as possible and took things easy. I feel great now, i can even run on it if i want, but the Waxing girl noticed a huge underlying bruise which hasnt yet gone away and she said it might hurt a bit... never a truer word spoken! EEeeek!!!!

But now im loving my smooth body, i am never ever ever going back to shaving or veet ever again!

Ultimate hair fighting championship!

2010-09-28T17:40:00.002Z

I'm just about to head out to do another "first"....

I'm gonna go get waxed!!!

Now normally i just use sprat on Veet regularly or the odd razor here n there, but im always disappointed with the results, especially on how they only really last for a few days. So i made a call to a local waxologer (is that a real word??) and im heading out there tonight to get myself all smoooooooth :)

If this works well then i hopefully body hair will thin out the more i wax.

Wish me luck, i've never really had hot molten liquid poured on me and actually repeated this process all over my body. I'm hoping it wont hurt much

xoxox

mmmmm, shiiiiitt, yay!

2010-09-13T19:09:00.003Z

So the title of this post may look a little bizarre if you remove the comma's. I can assure you i have not been recreating the 2girls1cup video in my spare time, Rather the title is a bit of an abbreviation of the last few days.

Mmmmm....

So i'm walking around the shops the other day and im totally in love with this seasons style, Its all about warm browns, creams and adding a little faux fur in the mix.

I'm really in heaven walking through River Island choosing things to buy, buying mostly new season stuff before hitting New Look for some of their seasonal bits.

OMG the ankle boots (see my flickr pics) i had to have a pair, with some wool cream tights.. Sooooo Cuute!

Shiiiiiitttt....

The money is kinda irrelevant when your are buying things, I certainly have the opinion of 'money, easy come easy go' so i never really care how much i spend or what i buy until i actually see the total amount in print... eeek! i've spent best part of £500 in 5 shops. I only think im gonna take 1 or 2 things back so this will make the bill a more palatable £400ish so im fairly happy with the outcome... No regrets lol.

Yay....

So i try on most of my stuff and go out wearing some of my fave bits and return some clothes back to NEXT shop for a refund, glance in the mirror and realise im looking like a River Island window mannequin in my uber-cool trendy seasonal outfit. Defo loving the look!

The downside to buying more clothes is that i have to actually put them somewhere when i get them home. My wardrobes are full, my GF's are already bursting at the joints and until i had a little clear-out i genuinely could not fit them anywhere apart from the bags they came in!

Still, a quick visit to my girlfriends at Notts Chams soon had them re-homed, So all is good.

Wondering what 2girls1cup video is all about? Never seen it before?? Truly the most shocking video on the planet!!!, Those bitches are fucked up lol

BNO

2010-04-12T20:08:00.004Z

It was a long Friday that started at 5am, I had to drive to London and back to Notts for work which was very tiring, I didn't get back home until 9:30pm and i was really knackered, But i checked my Facebook and a friend of mine Jemma was down at BNO and it sounded fun so i quickly chucked on some makeup and headed down there to check it out.

I met Jemma in the reception around 12:30am and we hung out all night. I've never been to Pink Punters before so it was nice to not be on my own and Jemma showed me all around the place too which was cool of her.

It was great to finally meet some of the online friends i've made over the years, and everyone was real friendly.

xXx Samantha xXx

Leeds LFF

2010-04-03T12:39:00.004Z

Last night i went up to Leeds and had a great time at the 'First Friday' event, it was my first time on the scene.

Sure i've been to loads of 'normal' places and i've been out to nights out where there's been a few other Tgirls, but last night was very different from what i was expecting.

I met up with Sammie and Ellie in notts and we got to Blayds Bar in Leeds around 10pm Where we then met up with another local girl Danielle and her gf.

This place is tiny, its got an upstairs and a downstairs bar and would be packed to capacity if there were more than 150 people in i reckon.

Nice atmosphere though even if you do have to navigate the uneven cobbled alley to get to the place (Kurt Geiger 5' platform heels were not designed for off-roading)

We went across the road and into a club called The Loft (its in Queens Court), Nice place.

We spent a few hours in there and met loads of other girls, this place had a real nice vibe to it.

I put a few pics onto my flickr site if you wanna take a look.

My new hair was so wicked too, i love what my stylist Kerry did, its a wicked casual style which can be backcombed to big party hair, what do you think?

If anyone wants her contact details just ask me.

Samantha xoxox

Public Apology before i get sued....

2010-02-03T09:44:00.003Z

So i got it wrong....oops.

Emma, an online friend was surprised at some of the bad comments i wrote about the Foresters pub in Nottingham...

Turns out there are two pubs within 100yards of each other.. both called the Foresters...D'oh!

So clearly i was at the old one near Huntingdon street when i shoulda been at the other one on Glasshouse street.

I will take a trip to the new one soon and let you know what happens:)

xXx

Last Night....

2010-01-30T12:36:00.003Z

Last night i got all dressed up in my newest outfit from Dorothy Perkins... i was looking sweeeeet! if i do say so myself lol.

I decided to go and check out the Foresters Pub in town, This is a pub i've heard about a lot from a lot of girls, they are also known on the scene as LGBT friendly.

I first heard about this place back at Notts Pride festival last year, So i decided to take a drive and check it out.

I got into Notts around 9:30pm and parked up just across the road. Now... im pretty brave, there's not a lot that scares me, but as i looked at this pub it looked totally uninviting.

I had heard loads of good things about this place but here i am dressed up, stood looking at a bit of a dilapidated building, wrapped in scaffolding, with boarded up windows.

I would've rather had to walk through a bunch of chavs in the darkest corner of a multistory carpark in the middle of the night.

This place did not look inviting at all, now i know they say dont judge a book by its cover, but if you were in Waterstones and you saw a book (perhaps even the bestest book ever written, ever!), and this book was covered in dog shit, would you pick it up and read it?.... Nope, didnt think so.

Im not saying the pub looked dirty, far from it, i wouldnt know what it would be like inside cos i never made it within 20 yards of the place.

So i think ill wait until they make it look a bit more inviting before i venture there again.

I'm H.A.P.P.Y :)

2010-01-28T10:36:00.003Z

For those of you who dont visit my site regularly or for those who only follow this blog i thought i would pop a nice photo up to show how happy i am right now:)

I showed my new shoes to my gf last night and she was totally jealous (you know you got style when a real chick wishes she could wear your stuff lol)

I love my new black hair color, it looks wicked. I checked the scales and in the last week i've lost another 5 pounds, yay thats 12 pounds in 3 weeks!

I'm sure there's a song in here somewhere i could be singing to show how happy i am:) LOL

Also, today im going to go for a quick touch up with the laser. The last time i had my chin & cheeks done was Jan2009 and its only the last month that i have had a bit of patchy fuzz starting to show.

My top lip was last done around June 2009 i think, this is a bit more stubborn though i have got a few straggly buggers that need a good zapping.

Dont get me wrong its not unmanageable in fact i only shave the odd part of my face every week or so cos most hairs are very soft and unnoticeable, its just i prefer to keep on top of things while i have the spare time... I never know when mission control are going to schedule me for another space walk, i dont wanna be away from home for 6 weeks without a shaver lol.

Airport shopping

2010-01-22T21:22:00.006Z

Hi guys,

First off.. how HOT are these shoes???!!!?? >>>>>>

I'm out working on the south coast today, and while i was at the airport i spotted a Kurt Geiger shop in duty free and they had a sale on... yay.

So i quickly zoomed in on these babies straight away! Reduced from £189 down to £89 ... Bargain!

Duty Free? you ask... For the South Coast?? you ask... aaah but i am in the sun and warmth of the French Riviera at the moment sat in my 5star hotel room admiring my new found purchase:)

I was a little disappointed that i flew out today cos if i'd have timed it better i could've maybe gone to Milton Keynes and left from there tomorrow... But alas i dont make the flight schedules:(

Anyways... FYI when i write these blogs a rarely sit down and plan what im going to put down on here, in fact usually i start typing and then 2 hours later i eventually find enough interesting things to say and then publish lol.

So im trying to think if anything interesting has happened recently...... errr................... errrrrrrrrr.............. ah!!..... er no its gone.

Actually i not been on the scene lately, but hopefully i'll get a day or two next week to go out and maybe get my hairstyled or somethin, I just bought some nice boots from Dorothy Perkins so i should make the effort and go out and wear them in properly lol.

OOOOOHHH... TOP TIP If you shop at Dorothy Perkins online !!!! .... If you register as a student then you get 20% off... even off the SALE items! i just made up a student ID and invented a university (University of Trannyville if my memory serves me correctly) et Voila!! instant 20% off, they dont even check if your a student! Cool!!

Im still progressing well on my effort to lose a bit of weight and be a bit healthier...

My simple plan is just to eat less and 'do' more.

So breakfast is Bran Flakes instead of pizza or bacon sarnie.

Lunch is Skipped.

Dinner is Soup

I snack on around 2-3 apples or bananas per day, I also drink loads of fruit juice or smoothies.

I walk at least 30 minutes per day, usually to the shops or i even just put my ipod on and walk for the fun of it.

Im losing around 3-5 pounds per week on my own plan and i'm not even hungry or sweaty...Bonus!

I think im gonna need to freecycle some of the shoes i no longer wear... any girls out there size 39/40 need shoes? i should really post a piccy of them all when i get the chance.

Luv Samantha xXx

PS you seen Avatar in 3D yet??? .... If not, WOW... you're missing out bigtime! What a film!!!!

Happy New Year!!!

2010-01-06T10:28:00.002Z

Hello everyone.

Did you have a good xmas? Now i am totally and utterly self employed i managed to wrangle myself a nice holiday break. So i started my xmas around 16th Dec and tomorrow is my first day back:)

So you could say i've had a nice relaxing one!

I did do xmas day / boxing day in the UK with family which was nice (and not as stressful as me and the GF expected!) She was cooking for all of us and i was fully prepared for the kitchen to resemble the opening scene of Saving Private Ryan, and just like the Omaha beach landing there would be pain if i got in the way... Luckily i didn't get stabbed with the blunt end of the potato masher, Dinner was a huge success.

Then we went off to warm ourselves up in the mediterranean for a few days which was odd... it doesn't seem like xmas when your on a beach getting sunburn instead of it being freezing cold.

So im sat at home all cosy while the whole of the UK goes totally insane over the snow... Do you think regions that frequently get this level of snow look at us as a nation and think we should just get on with it?

I mean in Notts we have busses that have been cancelled cos of the snow. We have roads impassable because they havent been gritted (well apart from the bus routes, but the busses arent running anyway so what was the point of gritting those roads??)

Its obvious, why dont they just put grit sprinklers on the front of every bus? or is that too simple to think about?

Anyway i thought id put a quick piccy on here before the tree goes back in the loft for another 11months.

Catch u L8r

xXx Samantha xXx

hello y'all

2009-12-05T15:40:00.002Z

Did you know its been an absolute eternity since the last time i did anything remotely interesting!

In fact the last time was back in July or August.

I have not been in "Tranny Hibernation" nor have i purged all my clothes, shaved my head and joined the army.

I have simply been really really busy in my boy-life which is a good thing. y'see its the work i do when im not dressed that makes me loads of money to spend on shopping when i am dressed. So i dont really feel too bad about not taking more time to dress up and have fun, cos i have fun whether im dressed as a boy or girl.

I while back i went through a bit of a depressing time where life just seemed a bit, well bland. since then i left my job, started working for myself and now i am my own boss i get to do whatever i like, whenever i like... Its great!

The thing is that when you work for yourself every bit of work you do generates you 100% income (minus Gordon Brown's cut obviously). So i would end up putting the strangest times in, like emailing people at 11:30pm or missing lunch so i could prepare for upcoming jobs. i dont mind doing this cos i honestly enjoy what i do so it never seems like work to me.

My GF asked me the other night why i had not been dressing much and to be honest i had not even thought about it. However since then i have been watching the girls around the city all dressed in the knee high boots and tights and all cosy and while im being honest i totally love this time of year for dressing. I love being all cosy when out.

For the last few years i have gone xmas shopping in Nottingham / Leicester / Derby when dressed, its a seasonal ritual for me, of course i go out shopping other times of the year dressed too, its just i love the whole vibe of xmas and everywhere is so busy and its great.

So im gonna make a bit of time to go and do my thing hopefully.

xXx Samantha xXx

Notts Pride

2009-07-25T19:48:00.003Z

So me and the GF went to Notts Pride today, there were a lot of people there and the atmosphere was pretty nice, The TG side of things wasnt really focussed on, it was mainly gay and lesbian but it was still good.

The sun came out for us too! i knew it would be a nice day for it.

We watched a couple of acts on the main stage and a couple of smaller things happening on the smaller stage.

I saw a couple of girls i knew but wasnt close enough to say hello so i have made a mental note to say hey next time i see them.

Not sure my KG shoes were the right sort of shoe to wear on grass so i tended to stick to the paths but i looked foxy so i didnt care lol.

i've put some pics on my site/flickr for those interested.

Until now i have resisted putting pics of me with my GF online, i kinda feel that i have anonymity and if i put her pic up then its unfair in case she gets spotted... But today she told me we had some nice pics so i should put them online... so i have nervously uploaded one, i hope you like.

A good day:)

xXx Samantha xXx

Nottingham Pride 2009

2009-07-20T09:41:00.003Z

Ok, So who's going this year? Its on Saturday.... I was never really that bothered about going on somethin like this but after the other week when i went to Toronto Pride im quite looking forwards to seeing a UK version.

Im guessing it will be smaller and colder but should be fun.

Give me a shout if you are going.

hey peeps

2009-06-23T15:26:00.004Z

I'm feeling depressed today.

Somedays i wake up and i feel great and get ready and have fun and i come home and sometimes i blog, sometimes i put pics up...

Today i just feel ugly:(

I looked at this pic from the other day and i thought i looked casual, girly but natural. Today i look at the pic and all i see are my faults.

How come i seem to be the only girl in Notts and the surrounding 50m that actually goes out and does normal stuff. I try to do everyday things but (barring the very few normal online friends) i only seem to attract nutters or admirers. I wanna just do regular stuff with other girls who are passable, confident and overall just normal.

Are there any normal girls out there?

I need to hear some love from y'all.

xXx

(More) New Shoes

2009-06-19T09:46:00.005Z

Hiya girls n boys,

Let me tell you a story....

The other day i got off the train at Nottingham station (i had just been to London to swim the length of the River Thames for a dare), ok thats bollocks but the reason i was in London is irrelevant in this story:)

So i got off the train and im walking thru Notts city centre to Victoria bus station so i could catch the R1 bus home, anyways as i was walking past the Kurt Geiger shop on Bridlesmith Gate a pair of shoes caught my eye.... ooooooohhh Shhhhooooooeeeeeeessssssss. So i was stood there at the window like Charlie at the gates of the Chocolate factory and i shook myself "No Samantha! You have enough shoes! No More!!!"

So i then wandered to my bus and spent nearly 3 days dreaming of these new shoes, it went from slightly wanting them, to really wanting them, to needing them, through to "if i don

t get those shoes life wont be worth living" I NEED THOSE SHOES! FYI the shoes are 'Carvela - Habit' by Kurt Geiger if your interested.

I was chatting on MSN to a friend and i was telling her about the shoes and i said i was going to go get them, she asked if i would be going dressed and i replied "of course, it would feel weird if i didnt go dressed, wouldnt it?"

So my question is: How do other girls feel about shopping while dressed?

The reason i would feel weird going into the Kurt Geiger shop as a boy and asking to try some Platform Shoes on while in my jeans and tshirt, i would defo get some strange looks, and it kinda spoils the whole experience by chickening out of going dressed.

Anyway i was dressed casually, minimal makeup so i didnt feel sexy (much).lol

So i parked the Ferrari at the Lace Market and walked to the shop and when i went in i saw "my" shoes... a girl came up to me and asked if she could help so i gave her a really really big smile, pointed and said "those shoes keep appearing in my dreams, i have to have them", She laughed and got me to try them on and walk around in front of the mirror.... oooh they fit perfectly. I gotta have them.

The assistant was w

icked and commented on me being a "tranny with taste!" she laughed with me about 'not all trannys buying tat from charity shops'.

So i bounced out of the shop £120 lighter but with a mega pair of shoes...yay

On my way back to my Ferrari i spotted the MAC shop.

Within minutes i was chatting to the assistant girl about stuff, they are always dead friendly and love helping tranny's out. I got some powder to give my face a more summery glow, now i style my own hair i find that my face can sometimes appear less colorful, The good thing about MAC is they store your profile so next time you go in you give them your name and they instantly know what needs renewing, handy cos you never need to remember what tint your foundation is, or what colors suit you.

So £25 later i left for home. Total time spent shopping = only 1hour!! how quick am i ???!?

Check out my website for more pics of my wicked shoes!

Every tranny should try this....

2009-06-17T20:22:00.002Z

I bought some of that Veet "spray-on" hair removal mousse yesterday and i decided to try it today.

Wow! this is the best stuff i've tried before, it is far less messy than normal cream you apply with a sponge, you can spray it in every nook and cranny should you need to, it is mega mega fast to apply too. i managed to do all my legs, chest and arms in less than 3mins.

I waited 10 mins, cos i dont have sensitive skin so i always leave it slightly longer than it says, i hopped in the shower and 50% of the hairs just washed off from the pressure of the shower, the rest just get washed off in normal scrubbing.

I am so impressed, and Superdrug have a special buy one, get the second one half price deal at the moment.

This gets my seal of approval, i wont be returning to old style creams!

xXx

Shoe's... Deja Vu!

2009-03-14T10:39:00.002Z

So its all happening again...

I was in River Island the other day and i saw some shoes that i felt would go particularly well with the new top i had in my hand. So i quickly tried them on and omg they looked totally hott!

I was ready to buy them until i saw the price tag of £75! ouch. So i left thinkin i could find some the same cheaper elsewhere, i then went to Schuh, Primark, Peacocks, United Footwear, New Look, Monsoon, Topshop i even tried the internet but after 2 days of intensive searching im resigning myself to the fact i have now GOT to go and spend £75 grrr

excuse me....? excuse me....?? EXCUSE ME!!!??? Shift your trolley outta my way or i'll stab you in the eye with my Jimmy Choo's!

2009-03-12T18:32:00.008Z

OK i can confirm i have run the gauntlet and survived.... What the hell am i talking about?? I'm talking about the local supermarket Tesco's in Ilkeston.

Now i know there a lot of girls out there that enjoy the 1am visit to the biscuit aisle wearing their grans knickers but im talkin about shopping in the middle of the day!

So how come i got all brave all of a sudden?

Well, like any good film involving a flashback to a prior time let me take you all back to Tuesday morning.

The past week or so hasn't been great, i've been feeling a little depressed about not having much money (ed: Samantha, you spent all your savings on something for your boy-life so it serves you right!). OK so it does serve me right but anyhow im sat there watchin Paramount Comedy channel which is the best channel, and i decided to take my £30 and do some shopping, but this story would be boring if i simply went shopping, there has to be a tranny twist to it somewhere.?.?.. Ah!... here it is: I decided life is too short to worry what people will think and i just chucked some clothes on and off i went.

I've wanted my hair styled properly for ages, i had it done once before but it was much shorter and i went in boy-mode to the salon so i decided to stop by a hair salon on the way to Tesco's.

20mins later and im sat in the chair and the stylists are all bubbling round me and chattin and just being nice. wow. what a nice environment no wonder girls like to go and get their hair done all the time lol.

I took with me a couple of pics of hair i liked and just left it in her hands, my instructions were make it so i dont need an hour to style it it has to be easy.

1hr 30mins later and omg im totally astounded .... my hair! wow im so totally impressed.

Well i left the salon and i took my £18.50 change and headed to the supermarket. It is amazing how much confidence this gave me, not just the whole experience of being around other normal humans, but i checked myself out in the mirror and ok i might be biased but it was 100% girl looking back at me.

It doesnt matter how good a wig is, it is nothing like gettin your own hair styled. All the little nuances like round the ears and the fringe line and how it moves, people look at you and see girly haircut think it must be a girl. ha fooled ya!

Let me give you an idea of where my confidence is:

I normally go out shopping in town when im feeling pretty confident, if im feeling crap i just usually wander round the high st but not going in the shops.

I've never had the confidence to get dressed up and actually go and do a meaningful task like doing the weekly shop, weird uh? I guess its the though of having to interact with the checkout mong while everyone else is gawking at you.

Well after having my haircut i was buzzing so i knew i was never gonna fail this mission! Not while im looking this convincing! No failure here!..... er actually maybe a little bit... read on.

How i failed:

Technically i didnt "fail" going shopping in tesco's its just that when i got in there the first thing i saw was a sexy red coat and i thought, y'know what that coat would look good on me, so i bought it with the £18.50 shopping money and then some off my credit card too. D'oh!

Well ok so i left the supermarket with mixed feelings: on one hand wow i got a great coat and on the other hand my girlfriend is gonna kill me when she hasnt got milk for her tea (she's addicted to tea, i dont mean she just likes it... oh no try to imagine how a drug addict is tweaking after not having crystal-meth for a couple of days.... thats how she is with the tea lol)

I try to put the threat of imminent death to the back of my mind and i head home.... "oooooh" i thought as i drove past Next, next minute im parked up in the carpark and my credit card is dragging me to the shop floor haha.

I picked up a wicked pair of sunglasses... and some new earrings (pierced ears rock, if you've not had them done girls you dont know what your missin), i also got some other jewellery but decided to stop before my credit card melted.

So anyway i got home and feeling fab i had a shower and got all cosy wondering what to do tomorrow.

Wednesday AM

Decided it would be a nice feature on my website to document my transformation procedure 'AKA putting my makeup' on.

So check out my website for that feature, it took me 10 times longer to actually put it on my site than to actually do my makeup so i hope it helps a few girls out.

Anyway im feeling fab, its sunny, i got my shades on, i got my new red jacket on.... im feeling fan-bloody-tastic!

So i went shopping.... Back to tesco's! this time i actually managed to endure the directionally challenged trolleyites and the zombie like homebrand seekers for over 30 minutes and i actually managed to do the shopping.... and i got the milk for her indoors too!

Long story short, since having my hair done i've spoken to, and been around more people than ever before. It is a liberating feeling. Even when i'd go out before feeling 100% i still felt that i maybe got the odd passing sideways glance.

This time the only looks i got were from the men checking out this young, well dressed, well madeup piece of skirt shopping in Hicksville! Well i felt like Kate Moss on a council estate anyway lol (not as bad a feeling as one would think!)

So thats what i've been upto these past couple of days, If i'd have known that simply spending £12.50 on a haircut would inspire me this much i'd have done it long ago.

So its now thursday night and im back home after another mammoth shopping trip spanning Leicester, Notts AND Derby, i feel great and i hope by reading this i have made you guys smile with my infectious happyness! :)

Samantha xXx

Stubble

2009-02-20T10:17:00.004Z

Grrrrrrr.... When i said i've been stubble free for 3 months, I spoke too soon!

I have been postponing my laser appointments since early January cos ive not had any hair growth, but within the last week loads of hairs on my top lip have woken up and decided to sprout...boooo.

So im booked in for my appointment next week.

However as much as this pisses me off that im not totally hair free, i now understand how hair growth works. Let me explain it in my own way....

My laser technician says i need to have a session every 4 weeks, Other people say every 8-12 weeks. Let me tell you how it really works:

1) The hairs get zapped and after about a week all fall out....

2) For an unspecified period of time you will be hair free (this could be 2 weeks but will more likely be over 6 weeks)

3) Once all your hairs start sprouting out again, book another laser appointment and have another session.

Of course sometimes your sessions will be 6 weeks apart and other times they will be 15 weeks apart. It all depends on your hair growth.

Dont go for a laser session though unless you actually have sprouting hairs cos otherwise your just wasting your money.

i for one would have had only 6 sessions if i'd have followed the tips above instead of over 10.

xXx

Brrrrr....

2009-02-03T15:37:00.002Z

So the other night around 10pm i was walking home and i was absolutely freeeeeeezing!!

jeez i knew it was pretty cold outside but miniskirt + tiny coat + january = me shaking uncontrollably .. wow i must have looked like i was bopping to some random disco music while i was walking through the high street lol.

I suddenly realised what life at the north pole might be like on a warm day... next time i go out im wearing my jeans and a warm jumper and i dont care how casual i look... better to be a warm cosy tranny rather than some fantastic looking, sexy dressed popsicle methinks.

oh and i went on a chatsite the other day and my webcam popped into life (good thing i was dressed and looking fab) this site had girls from all over the UK on webcam... (NOT porn... you dirty minded people lol) ok i thought it was a little bit boring but i managed to start a mexican wave via webcam which started here in Nottingham and then worked its way north via Manchester and ended in Scotland somewhere... i'd like to think i livened the night up in that place with my random antics lol.

Also, 1 day into my website google ad campaign and i've already made $0.16 cents... er... wooo! ahem!

xXx Samantha xXx

PS - Boooo.... the snow is nearly gone.

Bright Red Lipstick and a Smudge of Eyeliner

2009-01-27T17:38:00.007Z

Hiya everyone out there in blogland,

Let me start off by saying happy new year, although technically its already gotten stale.

I had a fab time over xmas and i've pretty much not done anythin since xmas day apart from stay in and watch dvd's and play guitar hero.

Since i am no longer technically "employed" i get to spend most of my days playing xbox or watching dvd's...

oooo... that reminds me about all the Woolworths vouchers my aunty gave me for xmas, i think i'll go and spend them tomorrow on some .... whats that?.... ..... D'OH!

Of course having more free time means i can also spend my days dressing and doing my makeup or whatever... in fact im sat here in my tartan skirt, black tights and Ugg boots feelin pretty fab right about now.

I had my hair done the other day and my illegal shipment of contact lenses arrived in the post today (if you didnt already know about this let me educate you... Specsavers charge £20 for 30 single use lenses, some dodgy guatemalan hut is knocking the exact same lenses out at £38 for 90 lenses)

I was supposed to have another laser appt at the start of jan but i called them up and postponed it as ive not had anything other than a few straggly hairs appear. so i was supposed to go again this week but STILL no hair so ive rescheduled for 1st week of feb so hopefully (or not) i'll have a few hairs to zap.

Ironically the last time i went to be lasered (the 10th appt) they gave me a loyalty card which gives me a free treatment with every 6 paid ones... i dont even think ill need more than 2 appts so thats a bit of a shitter!

Me and the gf went shopping the other day (always makes me chuckle inside when she apologises for dragging me round clothes shops.... er... im a tranny babe, i dont actually mind! lol) So my attention is focussed on some new spiky ankle boots i saw in a shop window near the Apple shop in Derbys new shopping centre.... ooo they are nice and high:) i think it was NewLook they were in.

I read Becky's Blog the other day when it like the rest of my favouritist other blogs get delivered in my inbox, it struck a chord with me. She hasn't dressed in ages. Im kinda going through the same thing. Its a bit like if you worked at Thorntons chocolate; when you can have chocolate anytime you like you dont really fancy it...what i mean is, When you know you can dress anytime you like, you dont grasp every opportunity as though you dont know when you'll next dress.

I wake up in a morning and because i know i can dress anytime i kinda think ill put it off for another day... apart from today when i figured id sit and practice my makeup...lol

Sorry im rambling now... i wil leave you with one thought though...

"Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak".

love n peace n stuff

Samantha xXxXx

You know you've been trannying a long time when....

2008-12-15T17:46:00.002Z

Ok this happened to me the other day when i went out... kinda surreal really and this is 100% the truth i really am not making this up...

So im having a quiet wander through my little town and as im walking past this woman she turns and says "Excuse me, i know you dont i?"...

Now i dont know her at all, but i dont wanna be rude so i just said i dont think so... this is where it gets real freaky... she then says: "Sure i met you before, its Samantha isn't it???"

I was pretty surprised that 1) She recognized me. 2) she remembered my name.

She could tell i was surprised and said she was someone i chatted to previously whilst on a previous wander last summer. I still dont remember her but it was nice to be treated to some impromptu flattery:)

So it seems that my town has just gotten that little bit smaller lol.

Happy Xmas everyone xxx

sorry sorry sorry sorry...

2008-10-21T17:27:00.004Z

Phew.... All apologies for not blogging sooner out the way,

Now lets resume the show shall we?

Wow it was around May the last time i was here... so what have i been upto?...

Well lets start with June, ...... Nope nothing happening here.

How about July....... Step away, nothing to see here either.....

Ok so August must have had something going off? Surely....... Nope!

Well how about that for a great, fully action packed update of the june-aug quarter! Edge of your seat stuff you might think!

Well im glad to say that September has given me an excuse to update here.. I have finally retired... Thats right, i am a girl of leisure!

Im all happy i get to do what i want, when i want. Like dressing up and laser sessions.. which reminds me, I have been continuing my laser sessions every 6-10 weeks. (Mapperley Park Clinic would prefer it to be every 4 weeks but they must think i have a money tree in my back garden!)

So yeah, my laser... its been changed from the gentle Soprano XL to the Alexandrite mega pain inducing machine of fucking doom!

But the results are much better, Sarah on Rosesforum.tv warned me about the Alex being crap for manhair but its the best results yet. woohoo.

So the short version of this blog is that im back, hopefully should be on the scene a bit more -

... Like going to the new pub for tgirls in Derby, not sure what its called but its on Agard st. so i'll be checkin it out soon.

I'll put some pics up soon.

Oh btw i've gone back to my wig for a while, its more femme than my own hair since the retard at the salon went nuts with the scissors!

Ciao x

gallery update

2008-05-18T10:28:00.003Z

Hiya Peeps...

I went out last night for a wander... those boots i bought are well comfy... Anyways i put some new pics online x x

Samantha xXx

New Boots (yay)

2008-05-17T12:14:00.003Z

Hiya

So i got my new boots today and as soon as i picked them up from the post office i t

ried them

on.... wow... i mean they fit perfectly and look fab. (i think my gf might want a pair lol)

They have become my favouritist thing in my wardrobe... they almost feel like wearing trainers cos they have a grippy sole and really soft inner....

Most importantly though: they look funky and different.

Another laser session coming up on tuesday...yay

All i need now is a good night out with all my new stuff. Its a real shame that i have to either travel to Milton Keynes or Manchester for a night out ...grr... how come there isnt a tgirl scene in Nottingham?

xxx

The power of the simple Shoe (or boot)...

2008-05-15T10:14:00.004Z

Its not often i become obsessed with a certain piece of clothing or item.... actually thats a bit of a white lie... i really love "things" whether it be a gadget, a toy or a some new clothes...

I live in constant belief that the next piece of clothing i buy will perfect my style a little bit more... in actual fact what happens is that i go on a shopping spree, spend nearly a hundred quid on stuff that i either never wear or would never suit me...

A bit like that pink wide stretchy belt i bought a year ago for £20... have you guys ever seen me wear it? No... i have only tried it on once and because i dont have anything it could go with it has been consigned to the rest of its days in the bottom of my wardrobe...grrrr.

Yesterday though i think have actually found the holy grail of my trannying... the bestest most wicked pair of fashion boots on ebay... Check these out: Life changing or what?

And only £20. I mean i feel sorry for the little chinese kid who sat for 30 hours straight making them but how cute are they? Admit it you want some.

bored bored bored bored bored

2008-05-13T14:37:00.002Z

So... im at work and im bored.... whats a girl to do???

hang on a sec.... i just remembered this internet thingy has online clothes shops.....ooooooh.....

ok... now im not bored....

yay

xXxXx

i have moved to the dark side.....

2008-04-11T16:36:00.002Z

or so it would seem...

In actual fact it appears to be much rosier on this side of the fence.

I am talking about the recent move i have made away from my trusty Vaio to my new Uber sleek MacBook Pro..... ooooooh shiny:)

Having never used a mac before this i found the first few days pretty tricky, but now im used to all the shortcuts and features im actually surprised somebody as techy and geeky as me didnt make the move sooner.

I always used to think that all Apple users were smug and high and mighty.... Now im sat on this side of the fence i can safely enjoy my bubble of smugness lol

Im just in the process of getting used to the new dreamweaver and then i think ill pop a few new pics to my site.

Lidl sucks

2008-03-26T08:26:00.002Z

So i went to Lidl last night... y'know.. the place thats a bit like Netto but with slightly better crap.

I went there to pick up some broccoli for my gf and for some inexplicable reason i ended up at the checkout with: 2x Walkie Talkies, a carseat massager, some car airfreshner and a bag of self raising flour...wtf!!?!?

Not sure entirely how i ended up with this stuff and i did have those niggling doubts whether i should actually buy this load of crap... This is where Lidl are really good at making you want things!

If you hold a bar of chocolate in front of a kid then say "you cant have this" to them i garantee they will want it even more... A bit like Lidl when you go to use your credit card and they say "no credit cards here love" eh!?!? WTF?!? No credit cards...?

How can any business NOT use credit cards in this day and age??? I had no money on me nor did i have the required "debit" card so i kinda left with all the goods at the end of the till.... I simply wandered out in a daze...

The Mastercard advert should be modified a little methinks....

Lidl tin of beanz.....9pence,
Lidl automotive tub of engine degreaser.... £1.25
Lidl bulk buy of 400 bog rolls..... £3.20
....Not being able to use your Mastercard in Lidl..... F**king stupid!

Why dont they put signs up so you know at some point before you hit the checkouts....grrrr!!!!

Post Office Trauma

2008-03-18T13:48:00.003Z

Ok... so i had to send some parcels off today and being the clever girl i am i prepaid and preprinted the postage last night so i could dash in to the post office and dash out like some sort of tazmanian devil... At least that was the plan, What follows is what actually happened.......

....I arrive at the Post office around 9:15am to find a queue not too disimilar to the one for the Empire state building observation deck... It was whilst joining this queue of life draining moral when i made some fresh observations....

1. Out of 5 windows to serve people at and only 2 people actually working, one of these a very slow girl and the other a tiny little indian man who clearly didnt want to do anything to help the public... He preferred to walk around counting money bags or fiddling with stamps or something, anything other than help get the queue back down to single figure capacity.

2. Now this is going to sound really snobby and i dont really care but i now know the sort of clientele the post office attract... Scutters! There, i've said it... im not taking it back either...

McDonalds attracts chavs, Primark attracts trannys after a bargain, Next clearance sales attract normal women and turn them insane in minutes... The post office attracts the absolute worst of out society.

I observed the single-chav-mum collecting her child benefits... oh incidently she was well pissed off when the child benefit money wasnt in the account to withdraw off her little swipey card thing... she said (i kid you not, this is word for word) "Im gonna kick off big time now, i need that money for fags" Now im no expert on the economy of budgeting support for drug addiction, but i reckon the child benefit should go to the kids?

The other mums then chimed up that they better get their income support/ child benefits (aka free money that i am giving them to do fuck all) They all started moaning, by now the little indian guy had opened his window (oh by the way its now 9:30am),

The moaning chavs waddled there fat-legging-clad arses to the window and berated the guy about not getting payments on time. the poor smelly toddler kids just sat there in their buggies discretely shoplifting whilst the mums used their distraction technique on the staff.

(ok so the last bit i made up but to be honest i wouldnt have been surprised if they did try)... Where was i ? ... Oh the smelly kids and the smelly mums... Being surrounded by all these greasy haired women, duffle coats and muddy white gola trainers, 3/4 length white leggings with egg stains on the legs... the smell of baby puke and fags clinging to them... I felt like an outsider.... A bit like a Ferrari car in the middle of a Eastlondon council estate... Now as i said im not a snob, but these people were clearly below me.

As much as i needed the post office i have to say shut it down, then that will confuse all the chav mums... hah!

PS check out my latest website update.

website update

2007-12-31T00:52:00.000Z

Just to let all you peeps out there that have my RSS feed that my website has a long overdue update..

love n stuff
Samantha xXx

Yay... I'm back!

2007-06-06T21:11:00.001Z

So wow... how freezing cold is the UK??? after glorious 33 degree heat for a week, i return in my shorts and tshirt and realise that i shouldve perhaps worn a sweater and jeans... Im starting to acclimatise now though.

So anyways even though im a little bit jetlagged i decide to have a play with my new Fendi bag... my gf has gone out so i played with my hair for a bit... (if my gf was here should would have made a much better job of it but its good im on my own tonight cos im forced to figure it out for myself). When you've never had long(ish) hair its tricky to make styles look how you want them to look... if you catch my drift?

As it turns out my "friday night project" email i got, was also sent to a few other girls who have emailed me to let me know. I wonder how that show turned out? i have yet to watch it as i sky+ it before i left.

God... im so tired so im gonna upload my pics another time i reckon... maybe i'll do a couple tonight.

I still havent seen my article in Repartee mag yet but its on order and on its way but thanks to all the great comments i've already received.

Samantha xXx

Friday Night Project...

2007-05-29T21:31:00.000Z

Check this email out i got the other day from Helen, She works on the production of a Television show called "The Friday Night Project". I am really flattered that she asked me to take part in the show, especially the way in which i was asked too. Thanks for the nice comments Helen:)

Alas i had to email back to decline as i am going to be about 6000 miles east of London at the time of filming. If i wasn't i would have probably gone and done it, so long as they didnt make me look a mongole.

I hope you don't mind me emailing you. I'm currently working on the Friday Night Project for Channel 4. Our first show of the new series will be filmed next Wednesday and hosted by the comedian David Walliams.We're looking for people to take part in one of the games that we're planning to play with David in the studio. At the end of the show we'll be playing a game called 'I'm A Laydee' we'll have three people in the studio, all dressed as David's famous Little Britain character Emily Howard. Two will be men and one will be a woman, David will have to decide which is the real 'laydee'!To make the game fun, we have found a slightly masculine looking woman and I'm now searching for some feminine looking men to confuse him further! Having seen your pictures on your website, I can see that you make a very convincing woman and I was wondering whether this is something you might want to get involved with.You would only be required to stand in the line up and say your name. We will provide costume and make up and we'll pay you for your appearance to cover any travel expenses you may incur.We'll be filming on Wednesday 30th May at the London Studios, we'd probably need you there in the afternoon right through until we finish filming at around 10pm, it will be a lot of fun!Do let me know if you'd like to get involved. I look forward to hearing from youBest WishesHelen

So anyways another bit of news is that the new issue of Repartee is out anytime now and im in it ...yay.

See you when i get back in a week:)

Samantha xXx

Heart Pounding moment!

2007-05-09T11:40:00.000Z

So i've read various humorous stories before about tgirls not taking there eyeshadow off and going into a pub and other funny anecdotes about nearly being found out etc...

So now i feel its my turn...

I was due to have my new kitchen turn up the other day and i was specifically told that they would come between 12 and 6pm for the afternoon delivery. Also that they would call me 1hr before they arrive so i could open the garage etc....

I woke up around 9ish and decided that a couple of hours of trannying around Eastwood would be fun.

So by 10am im all glammed up for mingling with the grannys and unemployed peeps around my local town. Well i say glammed up but really i was pretty understated in my sexy tight jeans and high heels with my new black coat all cosy i was too!

So anyways i checks my watch and realised that it was 11:30 i wandered home in no particular rush as i was safe in the knowledge that they were an hour away and they'd call me. No sooner had i stepped thru my door than a feckin massive lorry turned up outside! SHIT me backwards i couldnt miss the delivery so when my phone rang and the dude said we're outside i had to make them wait and the only thing i could think of was to say i'd only just got out the shower and to hang on 5 mins..

And 5 minutes is really all it took me to undress, remove my makeup, stick my head in the shower for authenticity, get re-dressed and then chuck some manly smelling deodeurent on to mask the sexy smell of JLO or whatever i was wearing:) 6 minutes later i was helping them in with the kitchen bits hoping that i'd not left my mascara on or lipstick showing as i hadnt even checked to see that all traces were removed lol

So anyways all's well that ends well.

xxx

My Night Out...

2007-04-23T11:59:00.000Z

Ok so last Thursday was a right old rush to go out... I had planned to go out with Katie to the Livisage Arms and we agreed to meet at 9pm but arggh i didn't even manage to have a shower and get ready till nearly 8pm so i had an hour to shower, get all made up and dressed and drive 20minutes to Derby... eek! :)

I managed to sort myself out in mega quick time and omg i wore my new top i got from an ebay shop, Its wicked it really makes my hips look big while keeping me looking nice and slim:) yay!

So anyways i got to the pub for 9pm... phew, Katie and Cat arrived fashionably late after nearly doing a parade lap of Derby ring road lol.

So we went into the very packed bar and got some drinks, it was so busy with like a million tgirls that we had to stand, but i'd worn my sexy boots so i didnt mind standing and showing them off a bit lol.

We chatted a bit to Sandi and Tracy and then a had a nice chat to a few girls i'd only ever seen on Roses Forum, I kept calling them celebrities... Well to me they are cos its like i've only ever seen them online and now i got to meet them...wow kewl:) Hiya Nicki B, Hiya Val nice to have met you both:)

Without going into loads of boring details i had a wicked time, i think Katie and Cat did too. we're going to all go out again soon but as the Liversage Arms is closing down, im not sure of anywhere else locally to go:(

Probably do the meeting at the Temple centre again soon.

Change of Subject ...

I am now the proud owner of www.samanthatgirl.com domain... yay

Please update any bookmarks / links you may have for my old samanthawhitetvuk.tripod.com domain which whilst it was ok for a free domain was a bit tricky to remember:)

Samantha xXx

owch.. owCH... OWWWCCCHHHH!!!

2007-04-18T18:30:00.000Z

OK so its been nearly a week since i had laser hair removal ... and bloody hell i never had it hurt this bad before.

I was planning to go out tomorrow to see the girls but im not so sure after looking at my face today.. It looks like i've dipped my chin in acid then shaved myself raw then attacked myself with some sandpaper.

Hang on one sec....., im going to attach a piccy of whats left of my face.... er.. on second thoughts after just previewing it its horrible and it makes me feel icky just looking at it...

Does everyone have to go through this? its like im goin thru puberty again lol. i got so many spots its untrue!

So how many peeps saw Leah True on telly last night? I watched it with my gf and we both thought it was good that they didnt try to put a negative spin on the whole thing. It would've been all to easy for C4 to make it all a bit weird but they didnt which is good. I thought it was good to see another girl who is 100% normal in real life, if i'd have seen that programme 10 years ago it wouldve made me realise a lot sooner that dressing means you arent weird.

And i personally think from what i saw on the show, Leah had the most original costume out of them all and should've won that section. ooh... one quick question; Where can i get some of those like sticky bra things that she wore? the ones that pull together for a fake cleavage? I gotta get me some of those:)

Im off to sooth my face with some wire wool now... ttfn

xxx Samantha xxx

My latest Laser removal experience...

2007-04-15T10:02:00.000Z

I go to the nottingham Mapperley park clinic and i have had a couple of sessions there so far...

Anyways the first time i had a test patch it didnt really hurt and she ended up doing most of my face with various output powers and i had no discomfort at all and to be honest i even doubted it would even work, like they say "no pain no gain" and all that so i figured nothing would happen but i had loads of hair just drop out a week later so was dead happy, although some bits are really really patchy.

The other day i went and i suggested they "up" the power and she agreed... My original was around 35joules but this new setting was around 45joules and as she explained would "kick me a bit harder"

Ok so this time i really did feel it however i think the general consensus that the top lip is worst is misleading, my neck area was way more painful in fact she backed the power down for my neck.I definately heard a fzzt on every single zap though which i beleive means the hairs are successfully zapped? Afterwards i was a little bit redder than previous and i have gained a few more spots than norm, but i get spot all the time anyway cos im still not totally grown up so it really made no difference.

I decided to do a bit of research on the soprano laser and apparently they are very widely used and to somebody un educated in hair removal like myself the machine seems to be a proper laser with good results most of the time, so i feel reassured that im not wasting my money.

Does anyone else round this way use mapperley park, im happy with the attitudes and professionalism of everybody there but i like to be an informed girl when it comes to spending money:).

On a Different note...

Thanks for all the nice comments about my new hair i keep thanking my gf and its doing her head in i think:) i keep asking questions about how to straighten it and flick it out etc lol she will probably shave my head in the night if im not careful heehee.

Samantha xXx